The After Life

I feel so lost and alone.

I thought moving would make things better. I thought it would take away the sadness and pain I felt and it did for a little while. Now I'm back to the why me and angry I was feeling before. I'm sick and tired of everyone getting pregnant but me. I'm tired of the stress and pressure it puts on me. Most of all I'm tired of the anger I always feel. I want peace and closer but I can't seem to find it anywhere I look. I thought I could find it in Oregon, I did for a very short time. I thought I would find it at the support group I have been going to and I haven't. I keep asking Jehovah for help and I'm not sure if I have found it. I'm so confused, sad and angry. Almost 2 years later I still hardly sleep at night. I feel like I get angrier everyday. I know I get angrier when I see young unwed girl post their pregnant on Facebook or when I see it on tv. I hate how acceptable it is to be a teenage mother or an unwed mother. I feel very lost.

Mike Seamus Family My dogs Love I gonna try everyday from now on to write 5 things I'm thankful for that day. You might think that's easy, maybe for it is. I will try to look on the brighter side and just maybe I will get there. Hope the end of my pain is in sight because I still feel it everyday. Its easier to pretend to be okay then to explain why I am sad or upset. Well goodnight.

I miss you. Every second, every minute, every hour and every day I miss you. Seamus, miss you, miss you.