The After Life

Tomorrow is Seamus' 5th birthday. Wow this is painful. So as you hug your child and kiss them on the forehead, while you tell them happy birthday be grateful for not every parent gets that luxury. Happy birthday my baby boy! Forever loved and always remembered.

Well it's almost here again....the dreaded Mother's Day. As husbands and children prepared to celebrate their mothers, I prepare for a day of misery. Celebrating just makes me feel sad and depressed about everything I'm missing. So I might as well embrace the misery and welcome it rather than fighting it off. Some will remember that I am still a mother and others will forget which I should be used to by now but I'm not. So to everyone that remembers thank you and to everyone who forgets fuck you!

It's hard not to confuse the two!

This is so powerful...

I feel so much guilt right now but no remorse. I don't know where to go from here.....