Change After

So somethings have changed like the title of my blog for one. There have been so many changes in the last 3 years or even in the last year let's say. Where am I at right now in my life? Well, I work at a place I love even though things are crazy sometimes and I freak out a lot but I think that's because I'm am OCD control freak. Yeah I said it!  I still try to hide my OCD tenancies but they are there. Work is the one place I can control the outcome of most things not always but mostly. I work with some great people. There are a handful in particular that I really like and see them more as friends. Hopefully the feeling is mutual. Lol. You never know! Its hard that one of them is pregnant and everyone is awwwing all over but I'm trying. I'm trying to be happy for her. I'm trying not to lose it when they talk about her  'cute belly'. I really am TRYING! But I have been on a mean streak lately. My mouth has said somethings it can't take back and it will land me in trouble if I don't stop. Home is good. Confusing at times but good. We still have no new additions to our family. Which I am trying to accept.  We still love each other. I still adore this man I share a home with.

Its just not happening.  So here I am. Again. I can't control home because there are to many factors that don't allow me to. Which is why work is easier. I have more to write but I must sleep for work tomorrow.