Uh Oh!

I'm really mad at my best friend right now. Not only did she say something that hurt my feelings, she has been drinking again. I love her to death and I don't know how to handle this correctly. I know I need to talk to her. She is one of those people that when she gets drunk the truth comes out. That's why I am very certain that she meant what she said when she said,"I envy your life." You envy my life?! WTF?! Seriously?! How?! She has so many great things in her life. A husband that loves her and works hard to support them. Two beautiful little boys, 3 year old and 2 months. Parents that are understanding, loving, and supportive. That are also helping the buy a house but, it my life she envy's. My miserable existence that involves crying all the time, wishing and praying things could have been different, looking at pictures that remind me of someone beautiful that is no longer here, more crying and hoping for better days. Wait I forgot to mention how hard it is to be around and one pregnant or with a baby. The birthday and death day that remind you of all this, the friends you lose and how it ruins your family. I honestly know she wouldn't last one day in my shoes and that why I hope she never has to.