Giving up

Lately I just feel like giving up. I'm so stressed about bill, money, work, spending time with Mike and looking for another job. I just don't wanna do it anymore. I have been hoping to get pregnant again too and it's just not working. I don't feel like anything is working lately. I tried to fix it everything but I can't. I feel very alone and I talk to Jehovah and I hope that he is listening. Things have been better since we moved but they are still hard. I can't stand all the pregnancy around me. It hurts and it feels so unfair. I try not to think about it but I can't stop. Its all that I want. My life is still so incomplete and empty. Everyone keeps saying it will happen, don't worry it's gonna happen. But when? I have been waiting over a year. They weight of life is crushing me and I feel so alone. I'm so tired and burnt out. I'm worn down and out. I need something to show that's it's all gonna work out soon. I continue to be crushed by the weight of everything. Celena has left me, kristina has left me, and even Lauren has left me. I just want to giving up.