A Different Time

I'm not sure where I'm at in life currently.

I know at work I'm back to where I began... running the store alone.

But that isn't the only place I feel alone. I have many friends and people around me all the time, something is still missing though.

Not sure how I can learn I'm okay alone without driving myself insane. Of course there is always a guy that makes me question things. The more time I spend with him...the more I fall for him. It's hard for me not to obsess and make myself crazy. I reach the point where I'm afraid that I'll say or do something to screw it up.

I'm struggling with myself. Confused...sad... infatuated...hurt...

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