Mother's Day

Tomorrow is mother's day and I have to spend it without my son. My first mother's day. It sucks! I pictured things so differently last year and I never thought I would spend my first mother's day alone. Even though my baby is not here I am still a mother. Even though I don't feel like it I am. A friend came into my work today and gave me a hug knowing that tomorrow will be a difficult day for me tomorrow. Wait its been a difficult week! Anyways she told you are a mother of an angel baby. Which was very sweet even though I know Seamus isn't an angel and then gave me money to buy a gift for myself for mother's day. I told her I couldn't take but she made me. What an amazing person she is! There still are good people in this world. This friend I know from work does this for me and my so called best friend can't even call me or check on me to see how I'm doing? Wow! Thank God for the people in my life like Holly(friend from work) that remind me I am still a mother because it is easy to forget when you going through so much. She really made my day. My little sister is taking me out for mother's day. What a good sister. I love her more then she will ever know.