99 Problems

Why can't people think when they ask someone to do something how it will make them feel? And why must they keep pestering about when you don't want to do it?

Arrr! Its so frustrating. I have so much on my mind right now. The big problem is  can't fix the one thing  I want to because I'm not supposed to know about it. But maybe I don't really know. My brain is scattered!  I don't like the whispers after I walk by. Even if their not about me. Peoples attitudes and bad moods. Just know if I could stand up for you I would how great you are at what you do. Please know alway got your back!

I wish I could just say that but I can't. I'm pulling my hair out about this one! What makes me made is they don't understand why. I don't have to explain because it's none of your business. This people is a great person and does not deserve to get thrown under the bus.

Thats just one problem. Money and bill those are my regular normal problems. Moving out of this apartment is another.  Finding someone that can just understand me for me and not the person u pretend to be. The messes, sad , not together and broken person I really am. I never get to be myself open. But that's probably because no one would like the open me. I mean no one. Sometimes I think if I share my blog that maybe people will start to understand me. What I feel or what I go thru sometimes just to make it thur the day.

Some days it's easy, but then there are those day I barely hold it together. I feel alone. I feel lost. Where can I find myself?