Just Another Day

When I read my old post, I can still feel my heart breaking and my eyes tearing up. I finally went to group last week after about a year. There were many new face which made my heart break. One of them being a friend. It was hard to get myself to go but I did. After 3 years it still makes me cry to share my story. Its still so painful. But I ripped open my heart and share just a little.

Then I went home and stitch my wound back up and went back to hiding. I don't know if it helped to go back but I did get there which was big.  I had more to share but I don't remember now. Gotta work tomorrow, at least it's with one of my favorite people. Gonna try to make it good.

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