As I Sleep....

I lay trying to sleep after a busy and stressful day. When I lay down is when all of my thoughts flood in of all the thing I should have done or of what tomorrow will bring. Of course you always wonder into my head but the truth is you never leave.....

Life is so strange and so frustrating. I make myself crazy thinking about what should have been instead of what is. My life is in a constant stage of grief that I can seem you leave. I love you too much to let you go.....

I can't let you go! The pain that I feel reminds me that you were real and not just a dream. I miss you with every part of my being. I never knew you could love someone this much. Physically I'm fine but inside I'm a mess and no one knows. They see me act like 'normal' but have no idea how much pain I'm in.

And yet tomorrow is another day....