False sense of hope
For the last few days (four to be exact) I thought this was finally it! Wrong. I thought this year was actually turning around this time but I was wrong. When well it be my time again to shine and be happy. To be joyful. Who knows when that will be. I'm angry or even sad I think. I think I'm to the point anymore where I am just numb to this kind of disappointment. I am so tired of it though. Maybe I am sad. I wanna have another baby and it seems so impossible. Why can't I be like everyone else. I'm tired of suffering, of crying, and of wishing for my own baby. I have been praying for another baby. Why can't it just happen. Please God I begging you! Please end my suffering.