Still....
Still to this moment in time, I can think your gone and feel so far....then out of nowhere a memory is tiggered. It knocks the wind out of me and brings me to my knees. It makes me realize that your memory is still here because of the pain I feel inside that only I still feel. I suffer in silence cause they can't understand what it's like to feel this. I'm sick to my stomach and can't sleep. I miss you so much my sweet boy, my pain may subside for a short time but it's always there reminding me that you were real.... I love you Seamus... forever and ever... until my last breath... Love mommy 💚💙